mezzanineview | A wild entry appears!

Aside from freaking myself out reading Web MD, I've been making a mad scramble to get in control of my stress levels with varying degrees of success. A product of having such an avoidant personality is corners like the ones I do drive myself into emotionally, and maybe when I got that letter about my schooling early in February, I may have started to drive myself crazy with anxiety, which would be feckless in and of itself since there's only so much that educational systems allow you to do at one time, so playing catchup is all a matter of taking it easy anyway and getting your shit in on time.

I suppose it doesn't help that I'm getting pressure from my dad to get some things rolling, but all I can tell him is the truth: I'm doing the best I can. I can take more classes and get an AA out of the way and hopefully get a job, but it will take time, time I've kind of already blown a bit of, but doubtless given perseverance I can get all of this through.

So I'm practicing giving less fucks about frivolous things, hoping that'll unclench my stomach and allow me a little peace from the constant worrying. I've stopped reading comment sections and forums entirely, tumblr savior'd bullshit I'm tired of hearing about and I just want to relax.

Breathe in, breathe out.