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I hate seeing how depressed everyone is, and I'm not saying I'm not (impossible.), but I want to put a teeny bit of perspective on this.

It's looking more permanent than it did even two days ago, but I maybe am not feeling it as rough because I've been half expecting FOB to not stay together much longer since everyone started doing their side projects around IOH. It's not being cynical, it's really just being able to accept possibility, and then driving the stake in by staying emotionally attached anyway, cuz there's no way I can abandon my boys. It fucking sucks, but it happens. Last year, Panic showed us that. I'd rather they separate for now and leave the option for doing more together at a later point in time than keep them touring & making music when they don't really want to and end up hating each others' guts, extinguishing all chances of getting back together.

Even if they don't, they don't owe us anything. We got four excellent albums (and a fifth most people don't want to talk about) and countless live performances and hours of fandom-y entertainment, and I know we just don't want it to be over, but it's their choice. Pete's been like this for years, he makes things seem like they're worse than they are, and though I choose not to be so sympathetic that his feelings bring me down, I don't grudge anyone the intensity of their sadness in reaction.

So I'll spend the day spinning Decaydance albums and looking forward to the imminent My Chem record. This is just how I cope with things.

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idk i'd just miss fob. insanely. i'm sure all their own little projects will be wonderful, but i looove this band so much :(

WHAT DO YOU MEAN PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO ACKNOWLEDGE EOWYG?! COME ON, "SHORT, FAST AND LOUD" PEOPLE! Haha.

Honestly, this break isn't nearly as bad as it could have been, so I'm not as heartbroken. I'm basically thinking of how out-and-out nasty the Blink-182 split was. And hey, I got to see them last fall! I'll just miss the boys being together and doing dumb shit that's well-documented.

Personally, I'd rather acknowledge EOWYG than IOH... ;)

I sung XO in the shower today to commemorate the parts of FOB I actually liked.

Then, since they're dorm showers, the guy in the stall next to me asked me if I was crazy.

I made almost the exact same statement yesterday.

It'll be sad if they don't ever get back into the FOB bus, but at the end of the day, they've had a decent run, we've had a lot of good times and it's their choice.

Besides, this is all talk. Never say die.

I really don't think it's over yet. I've been into this band for about six years now, maybe longer. I guess I'm possibly just in denial, but I dunno. This just doesn't feel final enough to me. I think they - or specifically Pete - will want the band to go with a bang. Whether in six months or six years time, I think they'll be at least one more "thing".

However, having said that, if this is the end, that's cool with me. I got six years of great music, memories, friends, shows, etc. It's not like anyone's dead, either, I can still keep track of all the guys (for want of a better, less stalkery phrase) and support their new projects. They'll still be my band, but they just won't be together.

And I just realised how often I used to word "six" in that sentence. Sorry.

I think my excitement for Patrick's solo project might be cancelling out most of the sadness I'm supposed to be feeling over this.

I'm willing to believe that it's not entirely over though. Who knows what the future will bring *holds up torch of optimism ~~or denial?~~*